Bored...And What The Hell Is Wrong With Guyliner???
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Posted:May 22, 2009 1:41 am
Last Updated:May 28, 2009 2:45 pm
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Had to snag this fromDIrtyBostonGirls blog cause i thought it was cute...
1.Do you own a thong? Yes a few,but usually dont wear any..
2.Do you own eyeliner?
WAY too many to count!
3.Do you own anything from Abercrombie?
Nope,dont like the store,lol
4.Do you own mascara?
Probably 3 or 4
5.Do you own a pair of ripped jeans? YES and i love my holey jeans
6.Do you own perfumes?
About 4 different ones but not the 100 bucks a bottle ones,lol
7.Do you own a pink bra?
2 pink and one black lace one
8.Do you own fluffy slippers?
Just got an awesome pair from my Mom on Mothers Day
9.Does it take you more than hour to get ready? Depends on where im going,lol..usually 30 mins or so
10.Have you ever had so much make up you didn't look like yourself?
Havent WORN so much that i didn't look like myself but i love makeup and i have a ton,lol
11.Have you ever been to a female strip club? No,but i think id like to
12.Have you ever been so drunk you had to be carried out of somewhere? YES,unfortunately
13.Have you ever been so drunk you blacked out? YES,way too many times
14.Have you kissed someone of the same sex? Yep
15.Have you ever had sex in a park? Yes many many times,lol.
16.Have you ever had sex in a movie theater? No,but i have at a drive in
17.Have you ever had sex in a bathroom? Yes and it was pretty damn cool
18.Have you ever had sex in a school? Nope
19.Have you ever received oral sex? Hehehe,,,yes
20.Have you ever given oral sex? Of course
21.Have you ever had a threesome? Long time ago with two guys
22.Are your breasts real? Hehehe..omg yes,i sooo missed the titty train
23.Where were you when you had the best sex ever? At the ocean in Galveston
24.Have you ever used Viagra? Well,considering im a girl,lol..NO,but the bf has and i got pissed off,lol
25.Would you rather give or receive oral sex? Receive surely,but giving it is awesome too
26.when did you have your first real kiss? 11
27.How old were you when you first had sex? 14
28.partners have you had? Realtionship wise..3
29.One Night Stands?
ah,yea and im not proud of them,lol cept for one long haired cutie pie,lol ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I was reading the news on americaonline and they had an article bout why Adam lost Idol...and said that the eyeliner thing was a big deal in why he lost.God..ive ALWAYS thought eyeliner on a guy looks sexy as hell.I even loved it when DC wore it a few times last year and in PGH...omg yes...lol.Course back in the 80s some of the guys simply went tooooo far with makeup...i dont like that on a guy,but 'guyliner' is a big turn on.I asked Tim a good while back if he ever would wear some for me and he said HELL no,lol,so im outta luck there.But i do find it extremely sexy on most guys.
Im really pissed again...not about Idol(im over that i think,lol) but My name is Earl is gonna be cancelled.That was my second fave show besides House dammit.How am i gonna get my Jason Lee fix now? Good thing i have the first few seasons on DVD,and cant wait to get this season,it was probably the funniest since season 1.There was some talk about another network picking it up,that would be cool,but im not holding my breath,lol.But damm i hate it when you get into a show and it ends up cancelled.I member watching a few episodes of My Own Worst Enemy with Christian Slater and while it was odd,i think hes sexy as hell and i liked the show and it was cancelled long ago.Omg...i still think House is sexy,i hope that that doesnt jinx the show..hehe
Ah,man...i didnt hear the Ups guy today and missed getting my lap top adapter,pissed me off too.Then i look out my back door when i left today and had a note from my landlord asking me to call them. I dont know what the hell that is about,but if its an inspection thing im going to fly off the handle,unless they give me a few days to get rid of clutter.iM NOT the worlds best housekeeper,lol and with my back its hard to keep up a few times a week,let alone every day.Should friggin call them now at 4:20 and wake their ass up and see what they wanted.Cant be the rent because ive never missed a month ever.In fact i was going to go tomorrow and pay a week and a half early,lol.Not gonna do that now.Im thinking that its either because of my ASSHOLE neighbors who have the same land lord,were on MY front porch roof directly in front of my bedroom and carrying on and knocking on my window...i put up a NO Tresspa ssing sign to stay off my roof unless theres an emergency or some such shit.I should have called the police because they are into some shady shit and while i dont want involved with that--i dont want my landlord taking shit out on me when i didnt do anything wrong.Very frustrating ill tell you.Makes me think about moving in with Tim look better,lol.Or that they want to do an extermination even though ive never seen a bug in my house,either way its a huge pain in the ass.
I just dont want bothered to be honest.I have too much to do over the weekend as it is and i dont have time to clean and clear out everything--i actually cant lift things at all,with my back.But i cant be home more than a few minutes here and there,what with seeing my gram and grocery shopping and its a holiday weekend and shit,i just dont want to deal with them this week.Hell i doubt they would ever throw me out,im probably the only tenant that does pay rent on time all the time,and ive not asked them to fix my sink or my furnace-did those myself.I dont know...im not gonna think about that right now.
I better get off here,almost time to get the kiddos up and i need to get a shower and all that crap too.
Pic..Jason Lee and holy hell i think im in lust again..lol
Please be safe this holiday weekend and remember our Veterans for without them wed be in a shitty place even more so than we are.And if your partying,well you know what im gonna say,please dont drink and drive.
Have a great weekend guys and i love ya...
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"Unfucking Unreal"
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Posted:May 21, 2009 12:14 am
Last Updated:May 26, 2009 1:20 pm
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Ok...soooo No this years Idol didnt mean as much to me as last yrs did,evidenced by my DC love,but Adam was robbed.I was shocked that Adam lost,although as many people said that his being gay was goin to stop him from winning.You would think after years of fucking gay bashing BS,that America just might get it right.But noooooooo damn homophobes and religious conservative dicks who wouldnt know good music if it kicked them in the ass-mustve voted in droves.Or else it was a setup from the get go.Either way Adam IS a superstar and Allen will be old news if his cd sells anywhere near 100,000 copies.In contrast DC's is over a million and still selling.
Highlight of the night for me,of course was Davids song for his brother.The black armband made me cry before he even started to sing.And you could see that David was close to tears himself.God i love that guy(Gotta be my pic,lol).
Kiss and Adam was awesome...as was the last song with Allen,Adam and members of Queen.
Allison and Cyndi Lauper was a bit strange for me,but i love her voice so much i dont doubt that she'll have a big career..BIGGER than Allens,lol.Course in my current frame of mind id have picked Megan over Allen and i hated her..hehe
aghhh...im just frustrated that people are so frigging bigoted. And i cant even say anything good about Allen because i never did like him.Cant even bring myself to use his first name,lol.
Talked to my gram several times through the show and when it was over,she said he was robbed and that she wanted to throw something at the TV,lol.Shes doing really great by the way,in case i forget to mention that.And TB-i told her what you said about her in my blog and she thinks that you are a sweetheart...no argument from me there because i adore you to pieces.
Im not gonna say too much more right now,nor am i gonna even read the Idol sites and bloggers,im just that pissed,lol.I am done for sure with Idol,i can have my Tuesdays and Wednesdays back,lol.
Methinks i need help,hehe being so pissed,but i am.Good thing is that we will be seeing much much more of Adam in the future.
Damn Unhump Hump day anyways...lol
Pic...i had to,ya'll know that by now.But ill stop that soon..
Love ya guys
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ADAM....all the way...
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Posted:May 20, 2009 3:44 am
Last Updated:May 21, 2009 1:43 pm
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Damn..i have very little time to do a proper post,lol..but i had to just say how frigging AWESOME Adam was last night,omg if he doesnt win something is wrong,lol.My only lil complaint is that until the 3rd song,he was less threatrical,lol.He did let it go on the idiotic coronation song..omg he was so much better than Kris on that one specifically.All in all,he was amazing and while i had wanted a Danny/Adam finale...he still would have rolled over Danny too.I did something that i only ever did once before,voted as long as i could.Course it took me over an hour and a half before i even got ONE vote through,about 12:30 eastern time the lines were a little easier to get in,still i think i only got 50 votes in.I did that last year with my fave ever DC,and was able to get far more than 50 votes in for him.Of course DC is my all time fave Idol,but Adam is a close second.His Mad World was even better the second time and i loved his second song,even though i had doubts of him singing Patti Labelle.And the 3rd one..Kris couldnt hold a candle to that one.Somehow i get the feeling and i dont like it.. that the homophobes and the ultrareligious voters voted for Kris.. as they would for anyone but the gay guy.I think thats total total bullshit,i dont care if hes black,white,green,asexual,bisexual gay or whatever,hes the best of the year and one of the best EVER to come from Idol.I called my gram after each of his songs and she loved them all,spoke with her at the end and she said that if Adam doesnt win its a travesty.I was in the Idol chatroom for a lil bit and most of the chatters were Adam fans,so that was cool.
I sooo soooo hope that he wins...if any of you have read about his childhood,you would know how much this means to him.But ya know,in reality,win or lose hes a superstar.And 'Guyliner' rocks!!
Im looking forward to seeing tonights show,really only for DC to sing and Adam to win,lol.Ought to be a great show.
I have more to talk bout,lol...but im running very very late so i will have to get on before Idol tonight.Did get to a few of your blogs and i will do you all today.
Have a great hump day...hehe
Love ya guys...
GO ADAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Bees,Men and Idol..lol
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Posted:May 19, 2009 3:10 am
Last Updated:May 20, 2009 2:58 am
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Aghh...i had to go and do it..lol..and put Adam as my background.. lol.It'll go back to DC later in the week,hehe.More about Idol later,lol.
I HATE this damn computer.And i shouldnt,its brand new for Gods sake but its just so different from my laptop that im not used to it,dont have too many pics here,just crappy.And i wont even have the damn adapter til after Idol ends so i cant bitch in the chat room,lol.I have two PCs that i dont know whats wrong with them,but i didnt get rid of them in case i can get em fixed or something.I just dont like this one.
I got the ' stimulus checks Friday and i still havent made it to the bank,lol.Bout the only good thing i can say about the exhub is that he is a veteran and thats why we got the checks period.Now if i can make it to the bank soon.Hopefully tomorrow when i get to see my gram.I just didnt really want Tim to take me,but it looks like he will be.I know it sounds shitty but i really never told him my income,because more than half the time i end up paying for shit,and i have my own to worry about first,ya know?Not that i dont care about him because i do very much,i just feel as though i get taken advantage of a little bit.So ive finally learned to keep quiet,lol.
Our weekend was a nice one,cool weather...did some gardening and of course went to see my grandma and grandfather.She looked very good,if they can only get that frigging feeding tube out,she will feel so much better.I swear i must have went to 10 stores to find her a pair of glasses that she could see out of,so now she can read,she gets so bored being stuck in bed or in her chair.Finally found a pair and THEN i went looking for the mag with Adam on it for her,she really wanted it,i wasnt able to find it at all.Best i could do was the TV guide with the Idol story.I member buying the issue last year with DC on it,its still on my bedroom wall...hehe im such a dummy.But now i can take her things to read and she wont be down or bored.Least not as much as before anyways.She was in a very good mood and it was nice to see her that way,im not sure if they've given her something for anxiety or not,ill have to ask her when i see her.I know one thing though...if she doesnt find a way to either control my grandfather,or to not let him stress her out again,i fear that she will end up back in the hospital.He is one of the reasons that she had the stroke to begin with,because he had her stressed out of her mind,she'd been taking bloodthinners and with them you have to have bloodwork at least every two weeks to make sure that your blod is clotting right-not too slowly or not to fast,and she hadnt been able to get the bloodwork done for 6 weeks,and that must have loosened a clot that caused the stroke. She is so lucky though because it was a mild one,and it could have been so much worse.Hes a control freak and wouldnt even let the visiting nurse come,didnt want to be bothered with that.Part of her is totally pissed off at him for that,i can tell by the way she looks at him at times,that hes partly to blame.I think when she does get to go home,that he should stay where hes at for awhile until she recovers,because he'll just start the crap all over again.Not that she doesnt love him,cause she does,just that he pisses her off,lol.
We got home after visiting her and Tim gets the bright idea that he wants chili for dinner.Which would have been all fine and good BUT he had NO beans,only the dried ones that take a long time to be able to use them,lol.And he wouldnt go to the store which is like 5 mins away to get some damn beans,lol.So we had this kinda messy chili-like soup.Didnt taste too bad,least he couldnt blame me for it this time,lol.And we watched SNL with Wil Ferrel,well i did,he fell asleep about 15 minutes into it,lol.I have this weird liking of Wil Ferrel,not sexual or anything,hehe...just that hes funny as hell.And i watched Mallrats again...OMG i sooooo love Jason Lee!Specially in Mallrats cause he was in almost every scene but a few,lol.
He did piss me off though.As a recovering addict,i cant drink or anything and he comes to bed and wakes me up trying to kiss me with alcohol on his breath,i had to turn my head away.I dont have a problem with him drinking or smoking a lil...but i do when he wants to fool around and i can tell hes half kicked in the ass.It actually makes me NOT want to drink at all,so thats good i think.. lol.
Thats what is sooo hard with my sis Marina and the hep C..she cant drink and shes been drunk almost nonstop since February.She hasnt even made one attempt to see our gram..my God she knows that i had given gram one of my cell phones,she could at least call her every once in awhile.I dont get it.Yet i cannot preach at Marina because i was that kind of drinker for a long time myself,but she just will not get it through her head that this will kill her if she doesnt stop the drinking.She just wrecked her car last weekend,she is ok,but the car is totaled and what if she'd have hit another car and hurt an innocent person.I doubt in my heart that she will make it to her 43rd Bday next April and thats incredibly sad,even more so when i look at my gram being ill because of something that she really couldnt control,and Marina just fucks off and tries to drink the whole thing away.Its just fucked up.I understand the treatments are pretty harsh and that she will get pretty sick,but she wont even give it a try.I know it took a whole hell of a lot to get me to quit drinking,wasnt easy and i do understand that.I was lucky though because i quit before my liver was totally fucked up.But no one can seem to get through to her,not even her and its sad.
Gotta change the subject..too much of a downer there..
I found out this weekend,and i thought it was funny as hell,lol.. me and Tim were out on his deck and he happened to see a couple bees.And freaked out,lol.Me...im a girly girl in most aspects and i had to laugh at him trying to get away from the bees.I used to be afraid of them until i learned that if you stay still when they come around then they fly off(unless youre wearing some kind of flowery perfume)but NOOOO...he got up and started swinging at the damn things and i thought that they were going to chase him,lol. Then we were in the house about a half hour later and he saw a spider,lol...and im not even gonna go there,but that was funny too
God todays going to be a busy day again.Wanna go see gram and i wanna go to the bank and probably take Tim and the out to eat then do a lil grocery shopping which is ok cause its right next to the restaurant,lol.But i have to be home to see Idol..lol.Im still bummed that Danny went home and im still the anti-Kris fan,lol..so if i do vote and i really only voted for DC before,i'll have to vote for Adam.I was reading a little bit about the final two shows Todays singing one and Wednesdays winner one.And they get three songs a piece this time,one that the producers pick,one that they pick themselves and the dreaded coronation song.I bet about anything that Kris does Heartless again,lol.I want Adam to go GNR and apparently they werent able to get the rights to any of their catalog of music,so i think id love Wicked Game from Adam,he could pull that off sooooo well i think.Then again i loved the Zep so he could do that again,lol.I dont know,while i wanna see Adam win..it isnt the same as David,lol.Hell i spent an hour online last night at youtube watching his performances last year.Wish i could buy season 7,lol...but i havent seen any of the seasons available for purchasing.But on Wednesdays finale...ive heard that KISS is going to be there(why i have no idea whatsoever,lol)and David Bowie may be there to do a duet with Adam,god that kinda gives me chills just thinking about it and im not even a Bowie fan,lol.BUT for me the highlight will be DC singing 'Permanent'as a tribute to Adam. I know the song was written for Adam..and i know its going to be an emotional time for DC but at the same time i think it will be awesome.THEN after an hour of commercials they'll tell us who is the winner.Too bad i dont have Tivo,lol.
God i didnt even see that it was 6,where the hell does the time go anymore?I have to get moving,way too much to do today,and damn if i wanna fall asleep when Idol is on,lol.
Ill finish getting to your blogs probably after Idol..ill be around,lol
My Pens...whoooo hoooo...love me some Crosby,lol
Have a great day guys and know i love ya..
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Posted:May 14, 2009 2:29 am
Last Updated:May 19, 2009 4:49 pm
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Sooo...its true..lol.I joined A.F.F.on May 14th,2004.God how the time flew by..hehe.When i joined i did so with the idea of maybe meeting someone but it was really just a lark at the time.I did go on a few dates with some local guys but nothing clicked and i ende d up meeting Tim in August of the same year(not HERE,lol)so i had given a lil thought to just leaving the site,but back in those days,i spent a lot of mornings before work in the Philly chatroom and thats where i met my Bonobabe Grind and i love her sooo.But i had a lot of buddies in that room,and when i found the blogs,well THAT just led me away from the chatroom for the most part.Then when i started my own blog,i remember thinking to myself,God i'll never keep this up,id had blogs on other places and just couldnt get into them.But after awhile of blogging(and my first probably 100 posts were BAD,lol)i started seeing that people were reading me and GETTING what i was talking about.That i could talk about my horrific drinking days,my cutting,my abusive asshole of an exhusb, and not be judged because a lot of women have worn my same shoes. And while thats really not something to brag about..abuse is just fucking insane..it led me to meeting a lot of people whom id love to meet IRL and that i still consider friends as much as my'real' friends.Hell i think everyone knows me better from my blog and more about me that my friends and family do,cause i feel comfortab le here saying whats on my mind or whats in my heart.Not saying im the best blogger,hehe..in fact im far from that,but i do write from my heart,good and bad times.Its cathartic to me sometimes.I know there was a few times when i REALLY REALLY wanted to drink.. and id get here and blog until that feeling went away.Its just been an awesome thing interacting with you all,and i dont think id leave unless id have to for some reason,lol.I have slowed down a lot in the last few months,what with everything thats been going on,but i couldnt ever go away.One thing that does amaze me..and while i know there are people with 20 times the readers i have,is how the hell did i manage to have 110 readers,lol.Not that i am complaining because its awesome,i just dont think im a good enough blogger to have readers like that.(oooh but that doesnt mean that i want ya to quit me,lol)
I called my gram after Idol.I KNEW Danny was going to go home,i just felt it.I still dont get Kris at all,and watch him win the whole damn thing,lol.My gram was bummed a lil cause she loved Danny,but at the same time she adores Adam.She told me that some of the staff kept stopping her room to see what was going on with Idol,it was funny.I think i have the coolest grandma in the world! Hell,the staff love her i might not be able to get her out,hehe. I am done with Idol i think this time for sure.I still love Adam and i soooo want him to win,but i already have my favorite Idol ever win(DC)so unless theres a long haired rocker next year i quit the show.And seeing that the odds of that longhaired rocker ever going on Idol are slim and next to none.Actually most rockers look down on Idol and wouldnt even audition anyways..lol
I have a meeting next week with the staff at the rehab center and a woman from the dept of welfare,to see if they can help out even a little bit with the costs involved in their care.Without taking what little that my grandparents do have.Some people may look down on that,but ya know,my grandfather worked nearly 36 years on the railroad and back in those days it was hard work.And my grandma worked up until she had her ,so my god theyve paid much much more into the system than they would ever get out of it,ya know? They never had welfare,foodstamps,they made do with what they had and even taking us in when my mom abandoned us,she still was able to feed us and take care of us.My dad sent us(me and my sis and bro)$35 a MONTH for support,thats all the help that she ever had,so im trying to get some help for her that she doesnt lose what they have.She drives an old car,doesnt own her own home,she doesnt have stocks or bonds or anything like that..she does have a fair amount of life insurance on the both of them,but nothing outrageously high,and i dont think that they can take that from her anyways.Im having trouble finding their marriage license,lol. It was in 1946 and i dont even know if the courthouse has a copy anymore.SHE has the real paper,but i cant find it and she doesnt quite remember where she put it,lol.And i went to the courthouse website and my God a 6 year old would do a better job running that site,its totally useless.I just remembered that im pretty certain that she has coverage for a whole year in a nursing home if thats where she has to go and hes a vet so he could go to a veterans home if he had to,but im trying to keep them together if i can.
Im not gonna blog tomorrow like i usually do on Thursdays,cause i want to get caught up with your blogs,so ill have to wish you all a great weekend a day early,lol.But i really really have to get to my readers,its overdue.And til i get my laptop adaptor which probably wont be til Monday dammit,its too much of a hassle on this computer-even though its new i dont like it,lol.Guess it could be worse and not even have a computer period,still i want my laptop back.
I think im running out of things to say,lol..somethings wrong when i cant even ramble on.But i better get moving its after 5 and i gotta get the up soon.
Pic..MY Idol...lol
I hope you have a great weekend and be safe and happy.
Love ya guys..
Cant believe i forgot this but GO PENS!!!!!!!!!What an awesome win tonight!
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Im about ready to flip the hell out...lol
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Posted:May 13, 2009 5:19 pm
Last Updated:May 14, 2009 1:04 pm
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OMG...i had to order yet ANOTHER adapter for my laptop and i am mad as hell,this will be the THIRD one since February for Gods sake.
I was here and attempting to answer my comments finally when the computer shut down and the adapter is dead.So i only got one damn comment replied to and only made it to one blog to comment.I HATE the computer that im writing this on,i know it works,lol,but i want my laptop back,lol.So this probably wont be a huge ass post but i will do one tonight that'll be better than this one,lol
One thing i wanted to say,oh hell maybe more than one,depends on how long i can tolerate this computer..is about Idol.And im still giggling at the hugeness of the Adam pic in the last post..hehe and i dont even know how i did it,or id do it more often.
Last nights show..ahh...dammn pee break,brb...ok im back..sorry bout that,lol.
Adam...jeez i was soooo looking forward to him singing One,thats one of my favorite songs ever,and when he started it off so soft and slow i was loving it,until he mixed up the arrangement.I had just said that in my last post that i wanted him to sing it just straight because it would have been even more awesome.Still i love Adam regardless.Adam's 2 song..lol..well again,i hate Aerosmith and was a lil disappointed that he didnt do Wicked Game,but other than the idiot backup singer screwing him up,he did the song fine.
Kris...ahh ya all know im the Anti-Kris fan,so i didnt care for either one of his performances,Apologize was just blah and bland for me,and Heartless,while i kinda liked the way it was changed up,wasnt that it was Kris singing it,i dont like the song and just liked the diff arrangement,lol.I cant help it,ive just never liked Kris.
Danny...for once i thought that he did good one both of his songs. I didnt even know the first one,freakin Paula anyways,lol..but i thought he had fum with it and it wasnt bad.I LOVED you are so beautiful,probably my fave Danny performance of the season.
So my prediction(even though im not happy with it,lol)is that Danny is going to go home.Wanted a Danny/Adam finale but i dont think that will happen.Hope that im wrong,but i dont think i am.
Nothing much else going on here,lol..didnt get to see grandma like i wanted to yesterday,but im hoping for tomorrow.But being able to call her helps out some.And they are both doing well...i cant wait til they are home,but i dont think it will be for another month or so.It was cute,she was telling me that half of the staff will stop in their room on Idol nights to see whats going on,she said her therapist voted a hundred or so times for Danny..lol.Shes so popul ar that they may not want her to leave.
Shit,i gotta get going,have to wash a load of blankets before Idol is on and its cutting it close...why do i even care when my fave idol ever won last year DC lol,im such a blonde!!
Ill get on this damn computer and get to your comments and try to get to your blogs to tonight,really wasnt ignoring any of you.
Love ya guys....
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"i Think Id Rather Be Sleeping..or at least in bed"
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Posted:May 12, 2009 3:03 am
Last Updated:May 18, 2009 12:08 am
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Good God,the time is just goin too fast,i wanted to write a post all day yesterday and i just couldnt get to it.In fact i only got to two of your blogs and i feel like such a dick.One of these days i just might get my shit together,lol...
I was watching Intervention last night and..well i usually cant watch that show because 9 times out of 10 it reminds me too much of ME,the shit that ive done for a drink or 10,waking up not even knowing where i was at..trying to drink myself to death honest to God i tried that.I was that low that i wanted to drink so much that id just not wake up.But on last nights show the guy drank a mixture of hand sanitizer and water,for the alcohol in it.That reminded me of when i drank a whole bottle of mouthwash when i was out of vodka.And it worked,sad to say got me totally fucked up.Ive been sober for a good while now and i really dont want to screw up that.Im a binge drinker-i cant drink for a night and wake up the next morning and be all ok--i drank for days at a time.It does get a little easier the longer that you go sober,but to be honest,i have days when i really really wanna drink,i just dont let myself do it.I just dont wanna go back to those days ever ever again,those were some of the worst days of my life and i hope that they are over.
Went to see Grandma Sat,took her stuff for Mothers Day cause i figured that i wouldnt be able to make it on Sunday.Bought her 2 dozen pink roses,a U2 Tshirt..(hehe)some other litttle things and i found these socks that were so cool that i want a pair of them.. they have aloe in them and they are soooo soft,she loved them.When i visit her,she spends a few minutes looking in my eyes,at my face and tells me that i make her day when i visit her.That made me cry but i feel the same way,that if i could see her every day i most definitely would.
Took a few things for my grandfather too,so that he wouldnt feel left out,and i felt soooo bad for him.Here he had given me his wallet about 3 weeks or so ago,and it had like $400 in it,but he asked for it back,not that he didnt trust me,was just that he had wanted some money in case there was something there that he wanted to buy.So i gave it back(I SHOULDNT HAVE)to him,and here when he got into it to get a few dollars out to get a drink and a snack,he only had $100 left in there.Its a shame that some asshole would be so low as to steal money from someone who is ill,and i know hes not the only one its happened too,its just shitty as hell.I think i hate thieves more than anything.It was sad though and i had to stop myself from asking him if he wanted me to get some out of the bank for him,lol.Ill just give him $20 at a time.Hes doing well though,other than that fiasco.
Grandma is taking longer to get better but we know that is to be expected.But she is WAY ahead of where the drs thought that she'd be,so thats really good news.And she was able to eat today,it was not the best,lol...kinda like babyfood,but she was able to eat 12 oz and not have trouble swallowing and was able to keep it down,so thats a great sign too.Once she gets the feeding tube out she'll be so much better,have more mobility and just FEEL better,ya know? And i get to see her today so im happy...lol
OMG...i just heard that Adam is doing a U2 song tonight on Idol.Not only that its U2,but its One and thats one of my fave U2 songs ever.I think he'll to terrific with it and i hope that he does it straight(lol..couldnt resist)and not change it from the original version,i actually have heard Bono do it accapella and i think that would be cool for Adam maybe,he certainly has the voice for it.Its such a moving and powerful song that he really cant mess it up or it wont work for him.The other choice was Wicked Game and thats another awesome song too.The judges really are not making it easy for Danny and Kris..well i dont care for Kris at all,i really dont care what he sings,but he was given a song that Archie had last year and makes me wanna mute the TV,lol.And the song for Danny i dont think ive ever heard..lol.Im still torn with Danny and Adam..i started off on a huge Danny kick and i still love the rasp he has,but hes been skating by with his fan base for the last few weeks,while Adam has been on fire.Thats what is so exciting this year is that ya never know what Adam is going to do. I LOVED the Zep,omg one of my fave Idol performances ever.I ALMOST changed my background to Adam..but i have this insane love for DC and i just couldnt,lol.Silly as it sounds,i would LOVE to hear Adam sing Skid Row's I remember you...god i think id pass out,hehe but it'll never happen.
Had a nice Mothers day,was very quiet.Tim bought me flowers and a beautiful heart necklace,i wasnt expecting anything from him so it was a shocker.We stayed in and cooked together and i was able to recharge my batteries so to speak.(NEVER mind the fact that i broke my 'toy' AGAIN...hehe.)
Ive been such a horrible horrible blog commentator lately and i do feel like a dick.I cant seem to find the time,but ill try to after or before Idol tomorrow.
Tam..youre still in my thoughts and prayers sweetie and much love sent your way...
OMG...Drew Peterson needs to go to hell RIGHT now,the pompous and ignorant jackoff asshole.Aghh...what a waste of everything.
I better get moving,its almost 6 and i have a lot to do before i get to grandmas yet...i hope that you all have a wonderful day and try not to be tooo mad that i havent got to your comments yet,or your blogs,i WILL...lol.
love ya guys
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"Mothers Day and Bono Day"..couldnt be a better Sunday..lol
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Posted:May 8, 2009 4:11 am
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Firstly i have to wish all you moms out there the bestest of days on Sunday,that you have a wonderful one.I myself..have no plans un less someone is planning on a suprise,lol.
Bono day...lol...May 10 is my heros Birthday and well im not going to go into it again(cause ive already explained like 3 million times how much he means to me,lol)plus i wrote a post just on him on his bday last year.So Happy Bday Bono...lol
OMG...Zep on Idol...i was friggin floored and WOW WOW WOW is all i can say.THAT was the Adam that ive been waiting to see all year and it finally came out.Definitely he's in the finale and he just might win it all.I am still torn cause i love Danny too..and i am pissed that Allison went home,should have been Kris(Arch older,lol) that went.I dont know what it is but i cannot stand Kris at all.LOVED the duet with A&A..that was awesome and Daughtry was well...amazing too.One of the best,if not THE best shows of this season.Course i had to giggle a lil when he sang the line'wanna give you every inch of my love'..hehe.Im such a perv i think.Even though he's gay,i dont care,hes sexy as hell and he can SING.Although i love my David more,Adam is up there with Daughtry,and Bo...lol.I think i will be glad when the show is over this year.Not that i want it to be,just that with all the changes over the year,and with next week only 2 songs apiece instead of 3,its not getting any better.And the duet thing,i think if they were gonna do that,it should have been done with the top 10 or somethin,not the top 4.I may be one of the very few,but i loved Dannys part of Renegade..i like that raspiness he has its very sexy.And...hehe Paula coming out that she's addicted to painkillers,like we didnt ALL know that already.I probably shouldnt have said that,what with my past addictions,its just that she lied for years about it.
I need to get Moms day cards for everyone today...got gifts last week for my grandma,and i have my moms gift ordered,it may be late but its coming,but i have several more cards to get yet sometime later today.And i am getting to the point where i almost cannot go to the grocery store often anymore.With my leg and my back hurting so bad,i have to use one of those electronic cart thingies and i get all kinds of weird looks.But if i dont use one,i simply cant walk the store and get the stuff.Hell in some of the stores i go to(small ones)i have to take a break and sit on the fuckin floor because they have no benches or anything to sit on.I know i really shouldnt let it bother me,but it kinda embarrasses me.And i have to do it again today,dammit..lol
I did promise my grandma that as soon as she got home that id get my back fixed.And im one of those people that if i make a promise then i have to do what i promised,lol.But if i dont get it done,i WILL be unable to walk and i dont want that.I bought her one of those heat and vibrating chair thingies,i may have to go to her house and borrow it,maybe try out the vibe part.OK that was just wrong,lol and i know it.But if i use it the RIGHT way it may help me back a lil.It wouldnt be so bad if it was just one thing that was wrong with my back,but its all messed up.Spine curving,have several discs buldging and several that are out of place period and arthritis on top of all that.And i cant take painkillers,both because im scared to with my addictive personality and also im pretty sure that im allergic to a few of them that id been prescri bed several years ago.So all i can handle is muscle relaxers,which take the egde off but it never really goes away.
Wow...i finally made it to a few of your blogs,and even got some of my comments done too,cept i know it'll be the same after the weekend,lol.Im trying though....
God...i almost forgot to update grandma.Shes doing very good.She had had a bad day Saturday,she cried and made me cry too.But it turned out that it was the new med that they tried with her and it was making her totally depressed.They took her off of it the next day thank God.Im soooo glad that i came up with the idea of giving her one of my cells,that way i can at least talk to her when i cant see her and thats nice.
Im buying her a ring for her anniversary.With their names and the date engraved and their birthstones in it.Its beautiful and while it is kinda expensive,she is worth it.
Ahh...i better get moving,i cant believe that its after 7 already and i have a long day again.I think(hope)that i have internet on my new phone,so maybe i can get back here over the weekend.That would be great.If not...i wish for all you mothers out there a very very happy Mothers Day and for everyone..have an AWESOME weekend...
Pic...Bono back in the day..lol
love ya guys..
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Posted:May 5, 2009 4:00 am
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I was actually a lil surprised that the death of Adam affected me so much.I guess part of it was seeing him there being able to see DC and hear him sing to him..and also DCs comments,even when he got choked up,said that he was going to do this everywhere,even if he had to swim or crawl..lol.What a beautiful heart he has.
Speaking of Dc...my grandma called me the other day before i was about to visit her and she asked me to buy her a cd player and a few CD's.Well,even though i felt like i was betraying my inner rocker chick,lol..she wanted Carrie Underwood's CD.I actully had to look around for it,cause i never look at country music,lol.I DID splurge a lil and bought her the Joshus Tree remastered CD... hell I dont even have that one,lol.But ya'll know how much a U2 fan she is,she loved it.Although i dont think shes QUITE as big a U2 fan as me..lol.Like i said she was really happy with what i took her,yet i felt dirty and had to wash my hands after that one CD...hehe.She is doing very good,cant ask for more than that,ya know?
Weekend was a very quiet one.Tims 's prom was friday and i was nt able to get there to see him in his Tux,hopefully there'll be some pics from it.Mikeys prom is this weekend and he Doesnt wanna go at all.Not a big music freak yet and he hates to dance,lol..so we might try that again next year.I think back and the only prom that ive been to was my sis Ambers and that was a long time ago.I HATED school and and ya couldnt have paid me to go,lol.Plus the same idiots that i didnt care for were going to be there,lol..so i didnt even give it another thought.Same reason why i havent been to any of my high school reunions..lol
Hehe,Tim pissed me the hell off though...he was in bed and asleep at 9:00.And while i understand that he needs sleep cause he works hard,it left me with nothing to do whatsoever.I mean theres only so many Earl's and House dvds until ya get tired of them,lol.But i went online to my cell phone provider and im seeing about gettin g one of those wireless laptop cards,that way i should be able to get online at his house...and never het so far behind your blogs, lol.I was surprised that he DIDNT ask me for money..although i see m to have the feeling that he'll need some before the month is out
What the hell is going on in this world?I just saw CNN and they were talking about a guy who killed his whole family..cept the who managed to get away.Ya know,if your dumb enough to off yours- elf,just do it to yourself,not take your whole family with you.I swear that every time i put the news on,something like this is going on.And another (a lil boy)just went missing.Its heart- breaking for some one who is a parent,even if you dont have any its still fucked up.I dont understand it and i probably never will.And that ANTHONY bitch...how come everytime they either show her partying pics,or her laughing during jail visits..my god i just cannot stand the bitch.
I think im taking mike and matty over to see grandma this afternoon,been a while since they saw her.Course i think that Matt has an ulteriour motive,he wants to go out to eat.And to not a lil cheap one either,lol.But i promised them,so i have to do it,lol.I do know that id like to over and see grandma before late in the day cause i have a lot to do,gotta get to the post office and to the grocery story and i definitely wanna be home for Idol,lol.I cant help it,its my rock week.Doesnt hurt that i think Slash is sexy too,hehe.I hope that they can maybe to a few GNR songs.Axl owns the name of the band,no doubt he probably owns the rights to the songs and he just might be a prick about it,ya know? I think id like Adam to sing Dont Cry for some weirdass reason.Its all over the internet message boards where they want Adam to do welcome to the jungle and whilei like Adam a lot,i dont think that i like that choice for him.I really dont want anyone to even try to do November Rain,for 3 reasons,lol.#1..its my fave song EVER and i dont wanna hear someone mess it up,lol..#2Its a long long song..nearly 9 minutes long and considering that they get a 10th of that time to do a song,it wouldnt really work i dont think.But a perverse side of me wants him to do that song,lol,cause HE's the only one who could really do a GNR song and be awesome with it.I could be wrong and i probably am..probably just be a pick your fave rock song,no matter what.And ive heard that they are going to be doing duets instead of 2 songs apiece and just HOW the HELL is that going to give the voters whom to vote for,ya know?They've made soooo many stupid ideas and the whole season is in chaos.Ireally doubt that it will be on too much longer.I think the producers want an Adam/Danny finale and i think thats whats going to happen i bet,lol.As for this week(subject to change)I sooo do not like Kris..i wish he'd go first and then Allison and then get down to Adam/Dammy as thr final two.I cant complain there either because even though they are as different as night and day..they are my two faves.Reminds me a lil of last year with both the David s,that i thought for sure that Cook was gone.But this year if the finale is Adam and Danny then i would like whichever one,ya know?
Ok..enough bout Idol..i really got to get moving,I'll try to get to more of your blogs before Idol,or right after.Ooooooh..i did almost forget==Mike you were my 6200 comment.And i think thats awesome.So now i can go back and comment on your comments since i got the big one,lol.
Have a wonderful day guys...
love ya
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R.I.P. Adam C.
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Posted:May 4, 2009 4:07 am
Last Updated:May 8, 2009 3:11 am
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Adam Cook, the eldest brother of "American Idol" winner David Cook, has died from brain cancer. He was 37.
David Cook announced the Saturday death at the 12th annual Race for Hope 5K in Washington, D.C., where he was serving as grand marshal. The singer says the cause of death was a brain tumor.
Adam Cook was a lawyer from Terre Haute, Ind., who battled cancer for more than a decade. He famously cheered for his singing sibling in the audience of the popular Fox signing competition's seventh season in 2008.
Julie Henricks, a friend of the Cook family, said Adam Cook died at his Terre Haute home, where hospice nurses were helping Cook's wife, Kendra, care for him. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I just found out about this and it saddens me to no end.At least he lived long enough to see his brother win Idol and have a great Platinum album.
To show the heart of David...he stayed and ran the Race for the Cure race to raise cancer awareness and funding.What a beautiful person he is,inside and out.My thoughts go to his family right now,as even though it was an inoperable tumor,he did survive 11 years with it,but it came back with a vengence and Adam just didnt want to go through the chemo after being told that it more than likely wouldnt work this time..and he was tired,so very tired. My heart goes out to David and his family and prayers that they will get through this ok.
And i wonder why i LOVE DC...not anymore,hes just awesome.
Be back tomorrow with a weekend post..lol
love ya guys
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Posted:May 1, 2009 1:18 am
Last Updated:May 4, 2009 1:46 am
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Jeeez..just when i thought i was better,ive been feeling like shit the last few days,havent been to A.F.F. at all,im so far behind in ya'lls blogs,omg i dont know that ill ever get caught up..lol.Ahh i will,just taking me a lil while again.And i didnt get that damn big comment so i cant even reply to your comments yet..im such a dork!But i'll do that too..ive just been feeling shitty and half sick to my stomach that even reading is bothering me,if that even makes any sense.
I was just thinking that i havent seen Northvike for a long long time,i wonder if he quit blogging...he isnt even on my watched blog list,so i dont know.I miss many of ya that stopped blogging and one in particular(you know who you are sweetie and that i just ADORE you)its hard.I got a comment on my very first blog post back in August 06-god its almost 3 years of blogging-and that was such a bad post,lol.Not that the comment was bad,in fact it was very nice,i was just a bad blogger back then.Sometimes i think that i havent come too far,lol.But that was kinda cool.I actually HATE to look back at some of my posts from the first few pages because i was drinking too much then,hell i blogged a few times that i didnt even remember what i said.But for some weirdass reason i havent deleted them,i guess maybe to remind myself that i was pretty bad off in those days and if i feel the urge to do something stupid... then i could look back and SEE stupid,ya know?
I timed my visit to see my Grandma to be about an hour before Idol was on Tuesday,lol...BUT i only got to see Kris and i missed Adams yummmmyness.I know hes gay and all,and he doesnt hold a candle to David Cook for me personally(only cause im still in total lust with him,hehe)he has those sexy eyes,just wow.And i dont believe for a minute that he was really in the bottom three.Even though im still torn between him and Danny(John if you see this,member the sammich?..hehe)i know that Idol wants Adam in the finale just for the ratings.I really felt bad for Matt,even though i wasnt into him,he looked sad.Least he made the top 5 though.
Tim got pissed and didnt wanna stay and yea it was cause he KNEW that i wanted to watch Idol the prick.My grandma said he was just jealous and im thinking...what the fuck?If it was last year and DC then i could see him being jealous..lol..but its not like that this year.Hes just lucky that it wasnt Slash week because i would have made him take me home,lol.
Grandma is doing really good,i just dont let myself get all happy happy yet,i hate that side of me,but still i worry about things. She even tells me to not worry and all,but i still do.She has such tough therapy,God i dont think i could even do it,and she gives and goes as long as she can cause she wants home.I just was thinki ng that with the exception of a couple weeks,shes been in the hospital or rehab center this whole year.And id say she has prob another month to go where shes at,then again she might surprise me and be home earlier,she has that willpower.
Im in a kind of a dilemma and im not sure what i should do...i was talking to Tim this afternoon after work and he sounded down as all hell and i asked him what was wrong,and he was telling me how tough its been losing his day job.STill has the night job but his day job paid more and he didnt have trouble making ends meet like he is now.I told him about that energy assistance program and he applied for that and got it.I wasnt sure that he would cause his income was just about at the limit.So that was good...but today he was saying something like he worked 2 full-time jobs for years and was able to get by,that he wished that he'd have put some away for times like these.I felt bad for him,because he does work hard and hes alone most of the time when hes home because his has too many activities,lol...but he was getting pissed that V wouldnt help around the house or anything anymore..and i understand that to a point,if i didnt have Mikey to help me out around the house i couldnt do it myself and hell he and i still have a lot of work to do around the house after the weekend,housework i hate too,lol but needs to be done.But my dilemma is that i think that he needs money and doesnt want to ask me straight out.Hell i dont make as much as he does,i just seem to manage it better.I even paid his property taxes last year and that was 1300..which i THOUGHT i was getting back,lol..but i didnt.And i dont know that i want to give him a lot of money again.I have some put away for a car,and i made the dumbass mistake of mentioning something about that a few months ago--I just feel torn because i want to help him out and i do about everything that i can for him...but then part of me gets that fucking feeling that hes using me.And while the logical me knows that he really isnt,the cynical me thinks he is..lol.Some times i think that if we were living together then it wouldnt bother me giving him money,but he doesnt seem to realize that i have my own bills and rent and TWO to feed instead of one... and that its not a piece of cake for me either.And he never went through a totally POOR period like i did for a few years and i dont want to ever go through that again if i can help it.I dont know,i just feel guilty i guess cause i dont wanna just hand over a lot of money again.Just mixed up and knowing me..ill probably end up giving him something..lol
This is the first time ive blogged for a good while without me writing it out on paper first in case i lose the post,lol..watch it not post on me.Ah well,if it does then ill just write a way way condensed version..hehe
This swine flu thing-i seem to remember way back when it was going around in the 70's i think?But its kinda scary.I just finished a book about a Dr who was infecting people with Legionaires,and then i see the swine flu...and its like geeez,what the hell is going on ya know?Admittedly i dont know much about the swine flu,so im not even sure how its transmitted,etc.But its still a lil scary.Like we dont have enough to worry about already in this world.Its like sometimes i wanna say..stop the world i wanna get off..lol
Somethin good happened today though,damn.He and i went to this cash bash thingie Saturday night and it was free(id won 10 tix)and it was all you could eat and open bar and all that,plus drawings every few minutes for cash.Didnt win anything and after id eaten.. i didnt wanna stay til it was over because i didnt wanna be tempted by the free booze,so we left halfway through it.But they were selling tickets on this big ass flat screen TV and id bought like 10 of them and had a number and had to write my name on the list.Didnt think nothing of it,til i went to the club today for a little bit and soon as i walked in my friend Bill says...Erin you won that TV..lol.I didnt believe him,then everyone else says yea you won it..i didnt believe any of them.Finally he brings the board up with the winner and shows me the my name and what # hit the TV and God it was me..lol.I though that was pretty awesome,as my old TV was an OLD Tv..i dont think it was even cable ready it was so old,lol.But it worked good and i didnt need to buy another one ya know..but i do love this one,had play with it for awhile.
God i have a huge day ahead of me today,gotta get my grandmas and grandfathers pension checks and get them to the bank and send her bills,do my own bills yet but i can do those online i think most of them,lol.Then its the damn grocery store and pay my rent and pay her rent,my brain is on overload..no wonder i cant sleep too well,lol.Good thing is that Tims not picking me up til late,its his sons prom and he has to go somewhere with him,so maybe ill be able to get back on here.Bad thing is that by the time that i get all the shit done that i have to do,and he gets me ill just be bout exhausted and just wanna go to bed,lol.Ah,could be worse,i cant really complain too bad.
I better go get a shower soon,maybe get a lil more sleep before i gotta get moving,lol.Gonna be a long day methinks.
I hope you all have a great weekend and ill be by your blogs soon as i can,tomorrow hopefully.
Pic...Adam,hehe
Be safe and know i love ya guys...
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That song in my head,lol
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Posted:Apr 28, 2009 3:57 am
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Dammm,i forgot that House was on again,what the hell is wrong with me,lol.Guess ill have reruns to see later in the year though.
OMG,whats up with this craig killer?I usually watch the CNN early news at 5 AM,and heard all kinds of shit about him.Lord,whats this world coming to?Along with that crazy Anthony bitch,and the totally fucked up Huckaby creep,its just crazy and wrong.And the lil Haliegh missing for so long,its unreal.I think what pisses me off so much about the Anthony bitch is that she didnt even report her missing.I think it was the grandmother if im not mis- taken who did finally report her missing.WTF is wrong with this picture?If one of my went missing,let me tell you id be on the phone with the police immediately,NOT after a month of frigging partying.And her mother irritates the hell outta me too. And both of her parents have said publicly that they both had had the idea of suicide,makes ya wonder that they do know the truth and are protecting their .I dont get any of these idiots.
Speaking of idiots..lol,my heighbors were outside grilling at 12 AM last night.Last year i remember them doing it at 3AM,so i guess 12's a lil better,but still what the hell is up with that,,grill at a normal time,ya bunch of jackasses.When i was coming home last night i saw a moving van and said to myself...could they be moving pleeeeeease?No such luck,lol..was someone else.
Had a nice weekend,was beautiful outside and yet i spent a lot of the time getting caught up on sleep,ive been running on empty for a long time and just had to sleep when i could.Saw my grandma and shes doing well...she told me that they plan to start her on real food(hopefully)next week and get rid of the damn feeding tube,its been hurting her but she has to have the nutrients and all,so she has to deal with it for another week or so.I was thinking earlier that while she has a ways to go before she recovers,it could have been SO much worse.For that i have to be thankful.Even though i miss her terribly and wish i could see her everyday,she is getting better and thats such a good thing.She was telling me that when she has her PT the therapist was a former NFL player and ya know that my gram LOVES football,i bet she loved that and im sure that he liked her.Put her through quite a workout,but thats they way that she is,she gives 110% because she wants home,lol.And that the more that she can do,the better she'll get and the quicker she'll be able to get home.
Today is the 15th yr anniversary of my ex husbs stroke.April 27/28 1994-but he had a massive stroke that left him paralyzed and not able to speak.In fact after he came home from the hospital he never did ANY therapy whatsoever,even though i begged him to,it fell on deaf ears.I look back sometimes and i cant see how i could have prevented his stroke.It was caused mostly by his drinking,yet if i didnt get him a bottle,id get the hell beat outta me,so i was in between a rock and a hard place,ya know?Hes been living in an assisted living place now and has been for years now,i didnt even know where the hell he was(not that it mattered,but for the sake it kinda did)until our divorce when the judge ordered his lawyer to give me his address.That was 5+ years ago and i still never even drove past where he is.I just dont want to.
Tim called me a lil while ago and said he'd be over to get me at 7Am today.I was thinking what the hell?He usually does get me on Toesdays to go see my gram,but i got the time pushed back to like noon,lol.Simply have too much to do before i leave and he plans on me spending the night,which is all fine and good,cause we usually only have weekends.I was bitching at him and telling him that he needed to get the channel that has Idol on to come in(he still wont get cable,lol)or else i wasnt coming til after 8,lol.I have the feeling that there wont be any Idol for me tonight.Least its jazz week and one that i really dont have a lot of interest in,all but Danny and Adam i dont care about.But NEXT week,omg...member how i kept saying that i wanted to hear Adam do a Guns and Roses song?Hell ive been saying that everywhere,lol.And its rock week and Slash is the mentor,so that ought to be cool.Only thing is that Axl has to ok any GNR songs cause he owns the name and the rights to them and they'd have to pay,but id still love to hear Adam do one,i think that would just be totally awesome,he already has that Axl quality in his voice.
And im gonna miss the spoliers and all..lol.I usually watch it in the Idol chatroom,so we can bitch about or be awed by someone and it adds something to the show for me.There was this huge collectiv e YES when Lil and Anoop were voted off,was kinda funny but i had been saying all along that both had outstayed there time.I was reading in the Usa paper that they think that Kris is the one to beat.Im sorry but i just dont like him at all.Hes just an older Archuletta an ya all know i dont like him any better now than i did last year,lol.I do like Allison but she has no fan base that i know of.Hell everyone i know,online and in real life are Adam and Danny faves.Those are my fave Top 2..cause being that i like them both it wouldnt matter who won,hehe.Last year was a nerve wracker with the Davids and when Ryan said the winner is David........... Cook,i flipped out a lil,was shocked because he moved me so very much.Almost to the point of Bono,but not quite,lol.But yea i will probably miss tonight,should've made him get me Wednesday.NOT that Idol is more important,i shouldnt bitch anyways.
I think im on a Kevin Smith kick again in movies.Saw Clerks over the weekend and have quite a few on my netflix,but i think that Dogma is my fave.Course having Ben and Matt and Jason in it doesnt hurt at all...lol
I did manage to get to a few of your blogs before i fell asleep.. i havent commented on my blog comments yet cause im almost to the 6200th comment and i wanna see who it'll be,lol...just not ME.
Ah,i better get moving,almost 7 and i have a lot to do today as usual doubly hard with my damn back,its never easy anymore.Aint it a bitch getting old?..lol
Gotta post these lyrics cause theyve been in my head all weekend.. and its off Chinese Democracy.One of my two faves off that one.
Better(Guns and Roses) ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
No one ever told me when I was alone They just thought I'd know better, better
No one ever told me when I was alone They just thought I'd know better, better
The hardest part This troubled heart Has never yet been through now
Was heal the scars That got their start Inside someone like you now
For had I known Or I'd been shown Back when how long it'd take me
To break the charms That brought me harm And all but would erase me
I never would Or thought I could No matter what you'd pay me
Replay the part You stole my heart I should have known you're crazy
If all I knew Was that with you I'd want someone to save me
It'd be enough But just my luck I fell in love and maybe
All that I wanted was
Now I know you better You know I know better Now I know you better
So bittersweet This tragedy Won't ask for absolution
This melody Inside of me Still searches for solution
A twist of faith A change of heart Cures my infatuation
A broken heart Provides the spark For my determination
No one ever told me when I was alone They just thought I'd know better, better
No one ever told me when I was alone They just thought I'd know better, better
All that I wanted was
I don't know you better You don't know me better Now you know me better
I never wanted you to be so full of anger (anger) I never wanted you to be somebody else I never wanted you to be someone afraid to know themselves I only wanted you to see things for yourself
All that I wanted was
Now I know you better Now we all know better All that I wanted was
All that I want All that I want All that I want All that I want
If I were you I'd manage to Avoid the invitation
Of promised love That can't keep up With your adoration
Just use your head And in the end You'll find your inspiration
To choose your steps And won't regret This kind of aggravation
No one ever told me when I was alone They just thought I'd know better, better ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Have a great day guys and know i love ya...
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Posted:Apr 24, 2009 12:46 pm
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God..the days are going by so fast this week,sometimes they seem to drag on and on and on,and its like i cant believe that its even Friday already,lol.Glad it is,but i hate to wish time to go by so fast because time is something that you cant get back,ya know?The older i get the more it seems that time does go too fast.I member being like 18 and wishing i were 25,i even made this list when i went through my horrific childhood and finally got my shit together,of things that i wanted to have done by the time i was 25 and while i dont still have that list(wish sometimes that id have kept it,to look and reflect on it,lol)i did manage to do quite a few of the things that i wanted to do.If youve been reading me long enough you know that i went through almost a 10 yr stage of being agoraphobic and couldnt leave the house,just was really sooo messed up in my head that i actually wonder how the hell i got out of it.One thing was that i wanted to get married.Didnt plan on having ,id been around my neices and nephews,lol..and while that was all fine and good for an hour here and there,i didnt want to have any of my own.Ah,but then i met my exhusband when i was 25 or so,and 3 months later i was pregnant.So there went the thought of being kidless.Course then a year and a hald after having Mike i found myself pregnant again,i was actually totally pissed off when i found out i was pregnant again.I look back now and i see that had i not had Matt,id have missed out on something very very special.(NOT that Mikey isnt,cause he is too,lol)But i definitely didnt want any more .Then a few years ago,went through somethi ng really heartbreaking and while im NOT going to blog about it again,i have blogged it and its just a poem,so im pretty sure that some of you have read that.I just dont wanna talk bout that now...
And now with my grandparents being ill..makes you grow up--even if you are already 40+(i didnt wannnnna grow up)and i sometimes wish i could go back those 20 years.Not that i would have given up my kiddos,they are pretty much my heart,but there is a lot of things that i would have done differently.Wouldnt have stayed in the shit ty marriage as long as i did,wouldnt have met Sean(i picked HIM up in a bar,not the other way around,lol)Definitely wouldnt have let myself fall into the bottle as hard and as long as i did.THAT was never on my list of things that i wanted do accomplish.I wouldve gone to law school instead of paralegal classes,or done something with all the lyrics and poems that ive written-i can still do that i guess.I dont know,i spose im just thinking too much as always. I guess that im starting to feel old and i didnt see that coming.. lol.God that didnt come out right,i meant that when youre younger you dont think of when you'll be like 35,or 40 etc etc.Its the lil girl in me that wants a do-over,so to speak,lol.
Geeez,not sure why i got so serous all of the sudden,lol i guess its just that with everything going on,i havent found a happy place yet.Semi-good yes,but have those bad days too.And i dont know,its a beautiful day,supposed to be even better tomorrow,i think its just what i said that i cant or havent learned how to switch my brain off,the only thing that did that was when i was drinking,lol and i dont want to go back there.So somehow i keep going on,even though sometimes its hard.When i have the extra minute i try to read your blogs,i did get to a few of ya,and i hope like hell i can get caught up soon,but one blogger in particular (NOT that i dont love ya'll)makes me think every time that i go to his blog.Mike im talking about you..lol.Sometimes its a good think,sometimes its a not so good think,but its always a think or an idea or a sense of a lil security maybe.Im not a religious person,but i do believe in God and i pray an awful lot,but i dont pray for ME,if that makes sense.But it seems like i learn somethin new in his posts,or that remember something that id forgotten... somewhere along the way. I guess that's the kind of blog that i like--i dont really get into the erotic posts some people write,even though theres nothing wrong with that,lol..its just that im more into visible i think.And i tend to not read the super bloggers with hundreds and hundreds of readers i like the blogs where the person is real,and that's the way that i tend to blog myself goood and bad.Bad more often than good lately cause these havent been the best,lol.OOOOps....i didn't really say that the right way...i didn't mean to say that the super bloggers ARENT real people,but i think ya'll know what i mean. Ya know,i think the whole idea behind this post is to love your loved ones to embrace them every every day,to say those lil three words as often as you can.To your spouse,to your mom or your dad,to your ,to your friends and even your blogger buddies.Because you never know if there will be a time that you cant say those words anymore. I was going to post a song,cause im in a GNR mood,lol..but i think that i will hold up on that a lil.But its still in my head to blog about when i get home,lol I hope that you all have a beautiful weekend guys.... and i love you..
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