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Scaredy cat
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Scaredy cat I am awake and lying here in my bed and thinking about fear. Not the typical boogie man fear or the zombie invasion shit either. I am thinking about the fear that keeps us from doing thing we need to do. That unhealthy fear as opposed to the healthy fear of boogie men and zombies. Fear is as natural to us as lust. It is just as powerful and argument could be made that it is more powerful. However it is also crippling when it comes to certain things. Fear is what keeps us from talking to that pretty girl across the room. Fear is what keeps us from telling our partner that we really want them to do this for us. Fear is ultimately keeps you from discovering a really good friend is a tiger in the sack. Is there a way around this fear? Sure just say fuck it and live with the consequences of your actions. By that i mean what if the pretty girl across the room is an absolute idiot and racist and just a really big c word. You gotta deal with it. If you reveal to your partner that you really wanna try something in the bedroom and she is totally creeped by it you lose your partner. Or worse you are diminished in her eyes. And fear of losing a friendship will keep you from banging a buddy. There are a tonne of times when i ask myself a simple question. That question is this; "what is the worst that can happen?", If i cant come up with a horrible situation on my own then there probably isn't a horrible situation coming out of it. My mind is for better at punishing me than the world is. So ask yourself that question and get on with life with a little less fear. An aside and administrative. I will post my sunday story late tomorrow so stick around i want to make sure that it s good one. |
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I don't want anybody to think I'm a drunk when I mention this.... because I rarely drink. When I do drink however, there is that perfect moment when my buzz reaches the absolute perfect level. I actually feel this amazing sense of happiness and calm wash over me. Beginning at that moment and lasting for hours if I manage to maintain the balance by not drinking too much or allowing too much to be depleted, I am invincible. I will literally begin walking up to any woman in the bar if I feel like dancing. (on more than 1 occasion I have physically scooped one up and carried her to the dance floor, making it clear we were going to dance if she knew what was good for her  )I also begin looking at every other man around me and making a 1.7 second calculation that ends in me thinking 'Yeah...I could take him down if he starts something'. I never start anything myself. I'm not that guy. It's just nice to reach that point where other guys no longer inhibit me from talking to a woman that is standing near them and may be one of their protectors. If I could find a drug that could put me in that frame of mind at all times with no ill side effects, I would truly be a Beast. I could probably walk into a job interview as well and have the interviewer begging me to join his/her company at twice the industry starting salary.
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Hey my mind can think up a whole lot of horrible that can happen! 
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Aww fear... my biggest fear I have to say is rejection. That in itself is why I tend to hold back on asking for what I want or desire... I could care less what anyone thought because I asked... but the rejection. well umm... tends to be painful. Looking forward to Sunday Story time as well Uncle Spidey! ~ Gypsy ~
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I always play the worst case scenario with myself. Then it gives me the cohones to push forward. Not always successful but ok for the most part. I try not to let fear get in the way too much. I mean really, what is the worst that can happen, you say no right?  OK Sunday story time................................ I'm holding my breath with anticipation!! So very excited Spidey... can't wait my tall enigma!!! Although anything you write is good but when it involves spending the night alone with someone special, such as yourself, well that makes it extra special!{=}
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exactly. it is a short life we have, get to it.
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scary or exhilirating. you decide. it will make all the difference to you. i do understand your fear though.
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fear is ulitmately malleable, the sort of thing that you can form into whatever you like, shield or enabler in your case.
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you are really very welcome linds. anytime.
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I don't want anybody to think I'm a drunk when I mention this.... because I rarely drink. When I do drink however, there is that perfect moment when my buzz reaches the absolute perfect level. I actually feel this amazing sense of happiness and calm wash over me. Beginning at that moment and lasting for hours if I manage to maintain the balance by not drinking too much or allowing too much to be depleted, I am invincible. I will literally begin walking up to any woman in the bar if I feel like dancing. (on more than 1 occasion I have physically scooped one up and carried her to the dance floor, making it clear we were going to dance if she knew what was good for her )I also begin looking at every other man around me and making a 1.7 second calculation that ends in me thinking 'Yeah...I could take him down if he starts something'. I never start anything myself. I'm not that guy. It's just nice to reach that point where other guys no longer inhibit me from talking to a woman that is standing near them and may be one of their protectors. If I could find a drug that could put me in that frame of mind at all times with no ill side effects, I would truly be a Beast. I could probably walk into a job interview as well and have the interviewer begging me to join his/her company at twice the industry starting salary.
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patience is a virtue.
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Hey my mind can think up a whole lot of horrible that can happen!
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and that is why you two really should start with the kissing each other. discerning men (me) demand it. lol
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Aww fear... my biggest fear I have to say is rejection. That in itself is why I tend to hold back on asking for what I want or desire... I could care less what anyone thought because I asked... but the rejection. well umm... tends to be painful. Looking forward to Sunday Story time as well Uncle Spidey!
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I always play the worst case scenario with myself. Then it gives me the cohones to push forward. Not always successful but ok for the most part. I try not to let fear get in the way too much. I mean really, what is the worst that can happen, you say no right? OK Sunday story time................................ I'm holding my breath with anticipation!! So very excited Spidey... can't wait my tall enigma!!! Although anything you write is good but when it involves spending the night alone with someone special, such as yourself, well that makes it extra special!{=}
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i love the pics but as far as the story goes only ideas percolating in my head right now.
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