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Maybe my luck is changing for the better?
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Maybe my luck is changing for the better? Well this week I got some good news with my mom has her cancer tumors have been shown to be shrinking, which is a good sign. My mom will start up with another dose of chemo this Monday, but they gave her a break this week because her platelets were down and she had a serious rash all over her body. We figured out the rash however. It was the new bedsheets I bought my mom. It seems she's allergic to red dye. How she didn't know this, I don't know, but the red dye on her sheets were causing the allergic reaction. And she specifically asked for red sheets. Why? I have no clue. But we removed the sheets, and her rash cleared up mostly overnight. Anyway, I got more good news this morning...my boss has liked my work so much, that I was given a merit increase on my salary. It's not much, but it's still something good, and it's not tied to my review at the end of the year, which means I most likely will get another raise at the end of the year along with a bonus. Which is incredible, because my past jobs, they wouldn't even say thank you, and here I'm getting merit raises? Amazing. Man I love this company! So this month has been a really good month for me. My mom is getting better, I got a raise, I've managed to pay off my ex wife for all of the back support, I got a new credit card and I'm working to pay off my debt. I have to say, things are looking good. I know most of you see me try to post positive posts here, but there is a tiny part of me that's looking for the next big thing to knock me on my ass. And the funny thing is...I don't see anything in sight that's going to do that. Now, if I could just get my love life to cooperate, things would really be looking upwards. The funny thing is I'm more of a realist than an optimist. I'm trying more to be optimistic though because I for much of my life, I had a lot of negativity in it. I just felt I was always down. When I was a , I didn't feel like that all of the time. I remember having good times, less cares in the world. When I got older, I got more pessimistic and negative. I just didn't feel good about myself. When I got married, I thought that would fill the negativity inside of me, but it didn't, and to be truthful, my ex-wife made things worse for me. I wasn't who I wanted to be. After the divorce, I made a conscious effort to fix myself. I'm not hugely negative now, but I'm more...centered. I have my good days and bad days, but things have been a monster struggle to get myself straightened around and fixed for the better. I think that's a good sign though, because nothing good does not come easy. You have to work for your happiness. Nothing is never easy in this life. You have to struggle for it every day. The one thing I hate is when you see the celebrities and how good their life is, especially if they are 2nd or 3rd generation stars. You know that most likely, they've been handed their riches, their fame, and their opportunities because their parents intervened. Like the Kardashians. I hate these fake fucks. Why people give them their fame based on their looks is ridiculous and they were handed money from their father. Real life is not that way. The other 99 percent of us have had to work our asses off for it and it takes hard work and dedication to make your life a better one. Sure sometimes you get a lucky break. But you have to keep plugging away. So maybe...my life is getting better. It's still been difficult, but I hope that if any one of you are struggling right now, know that it's taken me a long time to get back on my feet, I would say some years. So know things aren't always bad. And if they are bad, the bad times don't always last all of the time. If you keep the faith, things will get better. Like the kitty motivational poster....Just hang in there!  Who can you call on to save the day? Why none other than... Agent  |
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6/16/2019 11:49 am |
I have to admit that after reading your blog that I found it very interesting. 
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Sounds like great news! Keep it up, and keep on trying to be positive. It may seem hard, but you will feel better for it. I fully understand life blindside hitting you with stuff that you never noticed, and the baseless apprehension that can be created. This roller coaster of life, enjoy the highs, work out of the lows, try to enjoy the trip. Good news. Visit my blog if you want to at thax013 and thank you very much!
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glad to hear
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6/14/2019 8:22 am |
Hey you are the one who has to hang in there and it is looking like the world lites are getting brighter for you..It good news for Mom too she and you have been down for so long now things are looking up..Alot of people give in and give up but those who stick to it come out better in the long run..being opressed with negativity isnt easy to overcome but you did it..short steps create better solid ground ..praying for more good things to come your way..shine on brother , shine on!
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Or not, and things might turn into a flaming ball of mess.  KIDDING! JUST KIDDING! Hang in there folks! Who can you call on to save the day? Why none other than... Agent
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